Tuesday, May 22, 2007

in sch now!
it ppPoured heavily jus now...
"die-reared" in the morning, stomach hurt so bad...bad bad bad i flushed the toilet 3 times before EVRYTHING was cleared!!!ahahahaha

geex..dear made me a ppt yst night at like 1am...haha...a microsoft idiot like him actually did a whole ppt by himself..haha...with lots of nice animation and stuffs...haha..was touched to tears u know...at the very last page he wrote: W*** Y** M**** M*....HAa secret....

my hands are peeling from all those belaying activities...bored bored bored...

Monday, May 21, 2007

Bacckk!

2 dAYs one night camp...was an attachment camp.

St.Mary of the Angels.it was a church camp

I was attached to another trainer 'Is'..his name..went for an excursion ard the campsite...den was attached to a group of church students...haha our group was called "care"..weird name ah..

wasn't that open to them at first..felt so shy and dunno wat to say..it's my first camp group!comprises of students from SEc 1-3...

it was a total new experiene..was shocked that one trainer had to actually take bout a group of 15-20 plus students!was really quite threatening at first...but slowly as i learnt from Is that we have to get composed when talking to them and most imptly show them who's the boss!!!

didn't have much activities on the first day..most of the RRArra-ing come from the trainers. did archery and rock wall...3 cheers!! haha..i got to do the archery with them! it was my first time using the bow and arrow..was so cool mann!den was the rock wall session....belayed the students...flewed up a few times..cause my anchorman wasn't really tt strong...the helpers were mostly the students..being a trainer really felt so diff...i was completly in whole charge for the belaying..helping the students to check,to open the carrebinas for them..

too bad the weather wasn't that good..it rained..so many campers didn't get to climb the wall...had campfire that lasted for 2 hours..then debrief and lights off...

took a bathed had trainer's debrief..den orh orh...well something happened to dear annd his attacher...heard something that shouldn't hear..stunned!slept at 2 plus...woke up at 4 plus..thanks to dear..hahaa...called me to acc him go out..so tired and shag le leh..but..still he's my dear =) so went out met him..sat along the bunks corridor and stoned for an hour...

next morning...i was suppose to take charge of the group le.wohoho..my charge...started to open up to the group a lil..did (zipline)flying fox...my job was bringing them down after they fly and remove the pulley thingy...damn cool learning!
suddenly i recieved a bad news...Is wanted me to go up to fly...jia lat..was trying to be brave be brave!haha cas my campers was there...argh..i dun wanna go de...but no choice...

next act was river crossing...nothing much..jus saw my group getting more bonded probably cas they are out from their comfort zone...being more bonded with them oso...


learnt alot of being a trainer during this 2 day one night...super many things to take note..
but aftall it was fun!

Friday, May 18, 2007

unfair?!

you think your life's unfair?!!wats the defination of unfair---not fair; not conforming to approved standards, as of justice, honesty, or ethics..you think you're honest?or do you even have any ethics?

HAH!then wat abt mine "unfairness"?wat right do you have to complain.just shut up and stop your swearings and attitude.

like i said-women are men puppet

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

women
are like puppets of men.who are we exactly in this society???men are creatures.creatures with no feelings.when they need you,all the nice words comes out.when they found their own heaven they simply just chuck you aside.do men really have RESPONSIBILITY?or are women treated as a LIABILITY to them.being allowed to get manupilated by men is the worst thing a women can recieve..puppets!women are nothing but puppets...

down with all men!

woots!
finally found the time to change my blogskin... at like 4 plus 5 in the morning.cant slp-super high


Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!!


it simply means fantastic or wonderful =))


mother's day


went AMK hosp to visit grams, mr mao tagged along :) kinda mini family gathering at the hospital..only shu zhen's family and mine...partied there..haha..ate quite alot..aft tt went to meet mr mao's mama for dinner part 2.eat again.no worries!eating's practically my past-time!



saturday


woke up in the morning half dead...no choice :( time past soOoO slowly.felt like dropping anytime.endure and endure all the way till dinner time..went HOugang mall- MAgic WOks ...ate the ala carte BUFFET! suddenly i wasn't tired nor sleepy anymore..hahaha...ma mao was too tired to chew..had a total of 7 ppl eating.joked ard played ard..laughed and laughed non-stop..


*i think i know something is still wrong,i sensed it.



Thursday, May 10, 2007

IT"S TODAY!!
woke up at 6am plus today...was so drowsy and lethargic...but had to wake up for today's InnoTrek trainer course..heh wif dear and huikang.$70 per person lei

went all the way to Lim Chu Kang, Sarimbun Scouts Campsite...was alr half an hour's late but there were ppl later than us la..haha. had some ice breaking session...my eyes were practically gg to close anytime..we were den further splitted into 2 groups. was in diff grp with my dude. a lil boring for the 1st part of the day wif objective setting and SOP..long story..not much diff from CIBTC (=

THEN!IT STARTED TO POUR!!there goes our high rope ob..rained all the way till aft lunch...abit more of lect on being an instructor there..TADA~~finally we get to go to the high rope ob area..all of us had to take turns in becoming a belayer,climber,spotter,rope manager and blah blah blah..

didn't expect the pole was so damn high when i climbed..it looked so low from below..my hands were soaked..btw, we had to climb only half of the pole and i'm alr freaking out lei..cant imagine me climbing to the top..
did free fall, felt like the whole world was spinning "FALLING!"...giddy ah..had lots of fun thru out..spent most of the time di siaoing siaong others and laughing like there was no tmr..partially oso due to our wonderful trainer mates...16 of us, majority are waiting for uni or NS, think i was the youngest among all

played other games--climbing the wall and some mini games which we had to coonduct ourselve for the group..went home at 7pm plus..the road out was super long and dark but enjoyable...

went for dinner at LJS.took mrt back...in the train...di siaoed siaoed ppl again la..dear purposely set his spring kiss kiss as the ringtone and i purposely called him.imagine the attention we were drawing..-laughs-

all "dieded" on the bus 88 back..no more energy..haahaaaha

fruitful day indeed...dear know dis is wat u always wan us to do tgt, quite stupid ah me? alr got phobia for heights but still thick skinned go for this course knowing i'll have to do all the high rope obs..excreted so much perspiration!anyway realli appreciated yr company thru out the whole day ((((:

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

in sch in sch!

finally get to blog...having stomachache now..
imagine eating ice cream at like 2 am..hahas.

i think i've planned my future..i'll study and get this dip..and i'll sign on to be a police! but if possible (which i think will not) i'll go uni to further study...

yeaps..so far so boring

blog song damn nice..got it from kong rui..hey gal dun be too upset ya??come to me if u neeed a ear to listen to kk =)

Monday, April 30, 2007

tsktsktsk...still cant slp...shall wake mr mao up in half an hour time to eat breakfast. sumptous breakfast.
i cant sleep...too many things are going thru my mind...













or should i say too many food...

ahaa..im very very very hungry now..no food no food no food..hmphs..it's like pouring out there now..cats and dogs..bad weather...wanna cycle out to eat prata but..TSK! im sooo hungry..
MR mao is as usual_slping.zzZzZ..

no food no sleep~

Thursday, April 26, 2007

set me free from all the hatred and love

im tired of loving you, it's hardwork and u don appreciate it at all..

now that it has all ended, a new journey begins..a life without you wad kind of life would that be?
you are free to love whoever u want now and i wun give a damn.

a bitch and a jerk

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

aloha!^^

finally i get to choose CDS (cross disiplinary subjects)...making a choice of french, psychology creativity, english phonetics or sociology...definitely wun choose wad china studies bout their history and stuffs..sure fail..

hahaas..yst was jormen's one yr ani...however we got sch..went out to meet ahmad,huikang,qihao to go suntec...had dinner at pizza hut...5 ppl ate abt a total of 67 dollars..quite worth it...

went kovan, watched them play bowling..halfway dear n i played arcade...went ave 8 kopitiam ate supper and we had to walked all the way home..

~love u dude~
thanx for all the things you've done over the past one year..haha..will rmb all the stupid things we've done, all the monthsary, all the quarrels, all the good times we shared and the downfalls. and thank me for finding you for giving you sucha wonderful life eh! hahaha.

one love, one lifetime.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adoreI
n other words please be true
In other words I love you


HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!!

has been ages since i last blog
no mood for blogging yea
hols great..of all days sch's starting at 23rd April.

slacking thru out the whole of march and april..life's great!
watching late night movies,going for night cycling...haha cycling all the way from hougang to AMK jus for dinner, den to NYP all the way to hougang park play soccer..

went home, realised dear lost his specs, cycle all the way back to hougang park to conduct a search..HAHA cycle till my butt was sore..


memoirs of my time

Thursday, February 22, 2007

whooot!

gongg xi fa cai =))


papa bought a new dress for me..preety pretty..blue de
....

new yr eve..watch fireworks and bian pao with jor..den went shopiing for goodies...hehs..bought coconut...kena squashed like mad at the junction..so funn!soO..xin nian qi fen!no train or bus home..took cab

had diner wif aunt and family...den met dear to go chun dao he pan...walked and walked...no bus home..in the end took cab again...rich ah



26th FEB! main exam day!!!5 subjects to take..wth KNS...humph...5 days in a row

Friday, February 09, 2007

SINCE JERKS CANT KEEP THEIR PROMISES..WHY SHOULD I KEEP MINE?!BE A FOOL AND STICK TO YOU LIKE A LEECH?GET A LIFE MANN!

beware: I BITE!!!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...
have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...
have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...
Love is Patient

We expect our spouse to cater to us immediately after one reminder or two. When we don’t get what we want and at the time desired, we become irritated or angry. But being patient means allowing, accommodating and accepting the other person’s ideas, values, personality and mannerism. So we need to constantly remind ourselves: “Am I loving when I don’t accommodate my spouse’s ways? Do I show love when I don’t accept my spouse’s point of view?” We know for certain that we do not practice love at that particular moment since a loving heart is a patient heart.

Little things inevitably happen in our lives and in our homes. Misunderstanding and conflict come to every home. During such moments, we get angry and sulk. We tend to blame: Why must I suffer the hurt and tantrum? Why should I bear the injury? Why must I endure the accusation? Why should I accept the slight? But, for any family relationship to flourish we need patience to humbly resolve the conflict. And, patience means accepting, bearing, enduring, over-looking, suffering the slights, shortcomings, blame, accusation, tantrums, injuries and hurts, without retaliation. Thus we must regularly ask: “Am I spending time to patiently cultivate the family relationship? Have I been patient to grow our relationship? Do I neglect to improve our relationship because I am impatient?

In order to be able to develop this loving patience we have to learn to forgive readily and endlessly.

Patience means accepting, enduring, suffering the slights, injuries, hurts inflicted by people

It is only patience that will help people become better than they are and make us better than we are.
FUCK OFF

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

swinging!~~~

it has been so long since i woke up MYSELF at 7 plus to come to sch...

heee...had csas "test" ya cute test...ez ez
later having FC lab test...kinda scared le

let me tell you:
you lead your life... i lead mine
from now onwards, i wun give a damn on wad attitude alrites
im utterly dissapointed wif u
a total lost of trust
a total lost of hope

gosh..wad am i doing here with my life...
ruining it with my own hands

Monday, January 29, 2007

taddaas! long time no update

found another job lo! heehee..at marina mandarin..banquet server lo..now working in 3 hotels! shh...

last sat...went for trng at MM...super fun! had an excursion ard the hotel! heh heh heh...aft tt rushed for work at holiday inn...wedding dinner again...the 4th wedding dinner so far..haa and the 100 would be ours

it's my first time portioning food...hands were lik trembling...can imagine 10 pairs of eyes lookin at you..tsk tsk...stresss

ate zi cha for dinner/supper..zi cha as in mee goreng only...but nice nice =)

sunday...yst...
went bugis shopping with dear and jor's mama..so sweet...jor's mama bought a shirt for me, v sweet looking shirt..aft tt had lunch at the hawker centre..haha..feel so xin fu..

at night both of us went back to my hse to eat dinner...claypot seafood mee...orgh..hungry hungry...then watched the day aft tomorrow...kinda ate many things when i went home..oh ya and mama bought the ikea snake for me..one for me and one for bro...LOLS...

Life is good with ME!

Monday, January 22, 2007

wahohohoss

F*** again! rushed all the way to sch from home jus to realise sch starts at 4pm...and i could have slept longer! u know!!! humph...so damn tired and sleepy lo...

hai hai...stupid me..went AS canteen bought a mee, fruit and vegetable juice...cheap ah..total $1.60 only..

arghx..an hour more to slack...


went ave 8 macs to study with dear yst aft dinner...den adel tan met up with us...hmm..so long no see her le..and she knows everything.say wha!
ya..hey gal..thanx u know..hahaa...nice to know tt lots of ppl out there still there..know that i can always count on friends like you...hahaaa...anw thanx for tt MCnugget meal!!! yum yum

dan,yiying,hwee,sandy...i know u ppl care alot for me and dun wish to see me get hurt..haha but i know wad im doing...and ya..thanx alot =))

Thursday, January 18, 2007

funny heh..i rushed all the way to sch, wake up early jus to find out that there's no maths tut today!!! means i could actuallly sleep more..grrs!@$#@$#%%

ok..shant complain..it's my fault too. TP's having open house so yeah come to seeEE my beautiful campus ok.

sch was ren shan ren hai today..saw my beloved jnrs! hees..work schedule's in a mess...I WANT MONEY!

$

$

$

$


yst night was such a joke..it was 2am dear and I was hungry..so walked all the way to hougang mall jus to buy food..we had only $3.37 (paying by nets)...walked all the way to ATM then to cheers..spent some time in there..in the end bought nothing..so went to plaza's shop and save...got a marigold soya milk and chipsmore..in the end..nets declined..WTH!! walked back to ATM double check again and walk back again..in the still decline la..fed up....


so went back to cheers and bought a kong guan biscuit only..P_A_T_H_E_T_I_Q


it was only till 3am den we reach home..LOLS...eat and den sleep...zZzzZZZ...

Thursday, January 11, 2007

haa! work was fun yst.

yeah currently working at hotel grand coprothorne as banquet server...

did OT yst..from 5pm to 2.30am...

hahaha guess wad..huw small can the world be..kong rui(my np jnr was also working there)
was a wedding dinner yst..so sweet the video...dear and i stood side by side watching it..heeh

made alot of new friends there..lots of china peeps..overall fun =))

reached home at 3 plus..slept at ard 4...tsk tsk...tiring...

she'll take you to the brink of deliverance
haa! work was fun yst.

yeah currently working at hotel grand coprothorne as banquet server...

did OT yst..from 5pm to 2.30am...

hahaha guess wad..huw small can the world be..kong rui(my np jnr was also working there)
was a wedding dinner yst..so sweet the video...dear and i stood side by side watching it..heeh

made alot of new friends there..lots of china peeps..overall fun =))

reached home at 3 plus..slept at ard 4...tsk tsk...tiring...

she'll take you to the brink of deliverance

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

long time no blog yeh..

super stressed up with studies now...main exams are coming...
hmmss...not doing very well for term test..

super many problems...whoew...gonna go into depression soon..hahaass..\


there are many thing i knew that you thought I wouldn't

Friday, December 29, 2006

currently in yiying hse=)

going squad gathering later at marina waraku..heex looking so forward to it...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

hehs!!

currently in changi airport..flying to taiwan later..will be back on the 25th dec.merry christmas!!


hai...6 days without my dear...dear 6 days without me...sorry..abandon u left u alone le


but dun worry!i'll buy back lots and lots of goodies for u de.



dun miss me =))
rainy day again...went fishing with dear..papa and bro today...din expect they'll tagged along...went punggol end..yeah!and we caught no fish...

went my hse for dinner aft tt...feel sososooo xin fu...it's the first time dear and my family eat dinner tgt..wheehees..aft tt went living room watch tv..jus me and dear only..heex.
papaa sent him home at ard 10..

happy family

Sunday, December 17, 2006

tsk tsk...super rainy today..

and worst stil dear and I were suppose to go fishing today..ya we still went..

keep raining and raining..wasted lots of time waiting...

went pasir ris park, fished under the drizzle...den met a few uncles..taught dear huw to fish..haha.whoo..like the way they throw their fishing rods out..so cool..

suddenly the rain got bigger and heavier...followed the uncles under the bridge..din went in..jus squated at the side..the rocks underneath was steep..i scared slip-fall-die...haha so rather let myself wet...but couldn't tahan much inside...so we ran under the super heavy rain to the nearby toilet.wasted time waiting again...

den went back fishing again at the beach...haha dear gave up den he joined me to play the sand...dug big holes in the sand..den keep digging and digging lo.see who dig the deepest..BUT.freak in the end..he said he wanna piggy back me.den ok promise chi kor bei but cannot throw me in the water...F***..i was still thrown in the water la..fought with him humph!use all the taekwando moves..in the end..kena push in the water for bout 3 plus times..humph @!$#@%%^%

din brought extra clothes..so ya..wait for it to dry..super cold...went home with everything damp..

hai..sianx..dun feel like gg PIPC lab tmr..go take mc!!wahahas......

Thursday, December 14, 2006

super fucked up and pissed off right now.BEWARE!

next time don't say things that you don mean it at all! don ask me whether i want you to follow my wish or not!

fucked up

IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO WAD I WISH.DON EVEN BOTHER TO ASK!AND SAY OKOK YOU'LL COME.GIVING ME EMPTY HOPES MAKING ME HAPPY FOR JUS THAT MOMENT.AND STOP GIVING ME THOSE STUPID excuses saying you are disappointed or wad!...and neither was i giving you attitude. you are such a big big liar.fuck off


enough pissed off with 'u' alr..came home..my bro's turn..can he stop being sucha 'carmen news reporter'.and pls wateva i say or do you got a choice to SHUT UP!


i kill

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

hahaa...i was on time for sch today!
3 more papers left..mus jia you le..

dear came my hse again today. helped him dyed he's hair...den watched spirited away..den went play badminton wif bro...hahaa..so fun =))

may be going msia this sat with dear and my family..haven ask yet..ohh but if can..it wud be sosoOOO funn! wohohooss
i received my first christmas card today!!!yeapiiex..

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

brr..cant stop sneezing..having influenza now...
hahahas
term test started le..Bmic paper was hell...tmr's BNF...

dear came my hse today...slept awhile den went sch for mine exam..den went home again...spent most of the time playing with my bro and watching movie...plus studying..k was forced to despite i was not feeling well..humph..and im still not feeling well now.


shucks..many things haven study yet..but so sleepy now...ayes..

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

so many things had happened for the past week...
quite surprised tt dear and i can still endure till today...those things tt happened wasn't minor..once in a lifetime experience..haha..owe many ppl a favour yea...

haha anw..MEIDAN this is for you la:
dearest dannie!thanx gal for everything..yeaa especially the so expensive gift..dun need to go to tt extent ma..but anw thanx gal =)) this is wad true friends are

and sandy..thanx alot too...u talk alot of "wow sense" into me..yr words always hit me so strongly...so meaningful..i'll be a strong gal!! strong!!


school today was ok...love experiment time...wahahas.did the test on fats in ice cream today...
having cramps now..urgh..wohohoo

Monday, November 20, 2006

nt feeling well today...argh...
feel so weak and sick...spent 4 hours in the same tut room..super cold..hahaa...feeling so drowsy now...still got a report to do..arh...


life's so wonderful with you beside me, standing by me no matter wad happens

Friday, November 17, 2006

tadaas! currently in tp's library..passing time...super cold down here even though im wearing my pullover...

boring boring....


shld have brought my matric card..den can borrow movies to watch!

super cold plus stomachache now..gotto go....

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

here to update..
had NCO course/camp last weekend..haha..lectures and lectures...felt very diff as we are the ones giving lectures now...
this camp made me and yiying experienced CIship...em..the feeling of bieng a CI...it's where we put our theory and 3 months training into use...yea..still need time to adapt and be a good respectable CI..
haha..thru out the whole camp...CI's seems to be the "baddie"...no comments..
oh..yiying fell of the safari bed and the whole bed toppled...hahahaha..laughed lik mad...
had BBQ on the 2nd night...yeah nice...couldn't play as much as we did like in cadet life..tough being a CI..gotto project a gd role model,gd image...yeaps..



TODAY

had 2 whole hours of boring CSAS..talking abt conflict management...my mind was practically shut down...haha..too lethargic
went meensa to eat for break..wha! and their cup of tea only sells $0.35! super cheap..
FC lab today...yeah got tt china teacheer =) sam's practically gg because of him..ahahah..today's experiment was soOsoo funn..no discipline at all..hahaha..fathin filled the glove full of water..curious me went to take and play with it...haha..super funnyy..everyone in the lab was laughing and laughing...kinda fascinated by it huh..then velda went to draw smiley face and wrote her name on it...but the product was pretty niceee done.spent the whole lesson stirring and heating carbohydrates..squeezing out water from the weeping gel..=D
aft sch..went NYP find dear...stupid..last min say wad playing soccer...went srgn macs watch vcd agian...cha lai angels...nt bad movie...entertaining



-carribean blues-

Sunday, November 05, 2006

You are a Total Romantic
For you, love is like a fairy tale.Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie.Problem is, you sort of want all three.
You bring the spark in the relationshipIn turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burningNot a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.
Are You a Romantic or Realistic?
You are a Total Romantic
For you, love is like a fairy tale.Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie.Problem is, you sort of want all three.
You bring the spark in the relationshipIn turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burningNot a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.
went out to study today... saw many many peeps! felicia..sok cheng and wan nee..hahas..

went dear's house yst...had curry rice for lunch..i was famished, super hungry alr..yet he stil keep playing his counterstrike..'last game last game...' bluff de lo...hungry till wanna die le..

went downstairs buy rice...ate and watched house of wax at the same time...bought a bottle of sparkling juice also...nicee...

at night..had dinner with his whole family...evryone was in pairs..yupss...

that's abt it..

tmr's O's le..wish those ppl taking all the best..god bless you !

Friday, November 03, 2006

din go sch the whole day today...haha dear came my hse...played comp games with my brother and his friend...

watched..house of wax and gong ye man wang fei..heh nicee..

2nd class drill trng tmr..goota go down...den many many things to do...and @!%%^ NCO camp is like next week! and..urgh...ok..me and yiying will try our best de..


gonna slp late tonite...many lecture powerpoints to prepare...


i love friday!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

hehs! had CSAS today...our teacher was called mrs sumathi...haha..fun and out going...had so much fun in her lesson =)

went to meet dear aft lesson at kovan..had lunch at pizza hut...ate..hawa pizza and chicken pasta...nicee =)


haha..had so much fun in todays's FC lab session...did dunno wad wet and dried sample thing..gotto go back to lab to get the results tmr agian...did some PH buffer...heh heh fun sia..weighed 15g of cake into the erlymetrical (dunno huw to spell) flask..den added 50ml of deionised water..then stir stir stir..mix mix mix..fun but disgusting...guess wad..den we got to titrate it!!hhahahahah...but i lazy,my grpmates did instead..

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

long time no blog

sch starts..tut,lect,lab..sianx...

3 new subjects...wha..


nthg much to update abt also..

miss SJC and my friends so much=)

till then SIMPLE IN VIRTUE STEADFAST IN DUTY

Sunday, October 29, 2006

has been a long and unhappy week...
yea..only a few moments was '=)'...

went marina south for steamboat with family and ye ye...lots of ppl..majority were typical and ugly singaporeans...sad to see huw they behaved...didn't have much appetite...
went home..took a bath...smell so nice now..whahaha..listened to the song Love, me...felt tt the lyrics were sososo meaningful..i cried...

if you get there before i do,
don give up on me.
i'll meet u when my chores are through
i dunno how long i'll be
but im not gonna let u down
darling wait and see
and between now and then till i see u again
i'll be loving you...Love,me...


wonderful story with perfect lyrics and so much feeling...


and between now and then till i see u againi'll be loving you...Love,me...
has been a long and unhappy week...
yea..only a few moments was '=)'...
went marina south for steamboat with family and ye ye...lots of ppl..majority were typical and ugly singaporeans...sad to see huw they behaved...didn't have much appetite...
went home..took a bath...smell so nice ..whahaha..listened to the song Love, me...felt tt the lyrics were sososo meaningful..i cried...


if you get there before i do, don give up on me.
i'll meet u when my chores are through
i dunno how long i'll be
but im not gonna let u down
darling wait and see
and between now and then till i see u again
i'll be loving you...Love,me...


wonderful story with perfect lyrics and so much feeling...



and between now and then till i see u again
i'll be loving you...Love,me...

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

=)


i shldn't have thought of ending my life...

Sunday, October 15, 2006

feeling better...situation is still unstable..

had no choice but forced by family to go johor yst...

my heart wasn't with them at all...

bought a adidas shoe bag..two shirts..

.......


confused

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

happy life....blah blah blah....


sweet dreams for two whole nights..heh heh...haha

went prime supermarket to look for the jelly jelly soy dessert cause some stupid pig name jordan like it so much...in the end dun haf...haha..

saw this turn turn machine..put a dollar in..and turn the toys out kind..heh..it was spongebob inside..so..yea..went to turn...haha..it was a spongebob keychain..dear and I each got one..he got the uglier one..hahas

then took bus to sheng siong supermarket cause mama say there have..pushed the trolley..heh heh and we went shopping! fun fun fun...bought chin chow and the ice jelly...had a hard time deciding wad flavour of syrup to buy...in the end we saw wine...den wanted to buy...but too ex...so bought the grape sparkling drink...hahs..

ate otah aft tt...den..home sweet home =))

Monday, October 09, 2006

i miss SJC
i miss all my friends
i miss the blue uniform
i miss the times we are tgt
i miss- meidan
i miss- yue ying
i miss- ppl whom i've let down

-depre55ion-
read * blog...knew it was all in the past..but it scares me..it saddens me..wad if you were jus like before..and I'm just your number 13...

Sunday, October 08, 2006

life aint as happy as before,
i'm slowly losing trust and faith.
without these two;
a relationship aint gonna work.
soon..it'll be over.
nothing is forever.
you made me realise that.

Monday, October 02, 2006

So far so good...these few days has been..ok..well...went played pool...i won 0 out of 4 rounds with jor..he send me home...did some stupid things at the bus stop la...made me fell flat on the bus stop ground..oUch
just updating abit...


29th
went night safari after work with dear..hehs very very very nice!saw some performance outside...went in took the tram ride...den stopped at east lodge there..walked to see many many animals..cool cool cool...lots of walk and trails..went back the tram again..saw many many animals..mostly were just a few meters away only...some were just beside the tram...
aft tt proceeded to the creatures if the night show..super entertaining and funny..it's a must-watch if you ever go there...
left at 10 plus...went to the souvenier stall..dear bought 2 bracelet...
overall..it's really worth going to night safari =)












30th
went lion dance with dear...sat at the back of the lorry..wha fun..chged into the lion dance clothes and all..den went along to see the performance...




-life isn't as beautiful as I expected it to be-

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Work was suppose to be off today..but me and dear dunno..in the end blur blur still go work..early by 1h...stupid..
haha work in JA( jungle asia) today again..not much ppl during weekdays..spend most of the time slacking..haha
hahaha..love work today..dear working dining..den can see each other most of the time..=))
went to do settings for a function tonight...wha..super ma fan with tt female manager...she's no good..bossy and picky...bleah bleah blah...
aft work went AMK play pool...won 1 out of 3 games with dear..went S11 coffee shop..shared gong bao ji ding...super spicy and pathetiq...den wanted to buy ice from the drinks stall..the aunty say no they dun sell ice...ok nvm..
den went to buy a can of drink...den ask do dey sell ice again...
aunty: you wan ice for wad! and she diaoed me..gave me tt bu shuang face..me:food very spicy need iceaunty:you buy outside drinks den come here buy ice right!me:no!food very spicy need iceaunty:no we don sell ice..u buy outside drink den wan to come here take ice..the management alr say cannot cas alot ppl do this..
walao eh..F*** her left right upside down ah!...i mean dun sell den don sell la..still must give tt kind of xialan tone and qian bian face..wad kind of business are they doing...even so they shld not be treating their customer like this..aftall we are the one paying and them earning!
if they know tt ppl are buying drinks from outside and coming here to drink..doesn't it mean tt their drinks are too expensive and ppl choose to buy from somewhere else? isn't it time for them to reflect! huh ? huh huh?!
super pissed off with tt women..make my blood boil...argh


u said: u wont use harsh words on me again...u wun chg...promised

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

finally..took all my sup papers...pray hard tt i'll pass all..if not..the consequences are gonna be real bad...


hai..seems like the happy moments are getting lesser and lesser now..we spent most of the time calculating how much both of us gave in...attitude...that is not the way it shld be...
got reprimmanded again by dear..regarding studies..nvm bout that..many tears...understand tt u care..but yr tone and the way u talked is jus so...i dunno...u think for yrself..im not yr criminal

things are gg so wrong...

love this song by michael bolton..heard it from class 95...made sushi today...specially for dear..in the end..not even a thank you..instead got scolded and thrown with attitude...


-love me for a reason..let the reason be love-

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Michael Bolton- I can go the distance

I have often dreamed,
of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome,
would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer,
when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying,
this is where I’m meant to be
I’ll be there someday,
I can go the distance
I will find my way,
if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile,
will be worth my while
When I go the distance,
I’ll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road,
to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander,
it will lead me to you
And a thousand years,
could be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime,
but somehow I’ll see it through
And I won’t look back,
I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track,
no,
I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope,
but I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance,
and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star,
I will go the distance
I will search the world,
I will face its’ harms
I don’t care how far,
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome,
waiting in your arms
I will search the world,
I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome,
waiting in your arms

Friday, September 22, 2006

had my first supp papers today...hmm..lonely journey to sch...to exam room..to take the exam...

OBC was..ok..hope i'll pass..ayess...

jor and I had craving for KFC's 2 pc chicken meal..so went my hse from houngang mall jus to take the coupon..den went cp KFC's...super many ppl..dear queued for quite long..in the end..they do not have thigh and drumsticks for crispy..din wan to wait...so purposely took bus all the way to RM's KFC...again...super long queue...bloody hell...in the end..they left only 2 crispy and 2 originals...the chicken was super damn pathetiq...was told by the manager that we've gotto wait for 30-45 mins for the chicken..humph..bluff de..the chicken was fried like 10 mins aft..cheato cheato cheato...

humph..mus lodge a complain...waste of effort and time and money...

arghx...working tmr..starting work at 9...

Wednesday, September 20, 2006
















Salt and Pepper =))

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

im burnt...yeah...from the 2 star kayaking course..shall update bout tt later

my face is peeling like mad now...pink patches over the nose and cheek...it's horrendous,disasterous,monsterous...

went back to sch for revision today..this friday start exam le..abit stressed up..
bought 2 goldfish today with jor =)) named them salt and pepper..haha..was suppose to buy tortoise de...but...nvm..goldfish's not bad either..haha

Thursday, September 14, 2006

feeling better now...

talkin it out to clarice and she told me her prob between her and her bf...

conclusion!!

MAN HAVE FREQUENT MOOD SWINGS AND CHANGE OF ATTITUDE

ONE DAY HE COULD TREAT AND LOVE YOU LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW,THE NEXT DAY NOTHING HAPPENS

MAN HAVE HIGH EGO AND PRIDE... (if the man who is willing to put down his pride and ego just for you...bless you many...cause this kind of guys are hard to come by..love him treasure him)
im depress again..

super depress...feel that happiness is only short term...

im very depress..you are my control station...if you're depress i'll also be...feel lik we've drift apart..i dunno..seems lik your attitude has changed..sweet moments is only a short term thing now..

super heartpain now...

-feeling so lost and helpless without your heart and soul-

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

stupid...results is suppose to be out tmr! 14th sept...but the sms results was sent today! bloody hell!!! @%!$%$!^

i did badly..gotto take 3 sub papers..PIPC>>OBC>>MATHS...argh..mama papa...

dunno wads gonna to happen to me and jor...bad things is gonna happen...im very scared..super scared...we're gonna get seperated...

PROMISE WE MADE TODAY
no matter wad happens...we'll never never leave each other cause we'll brave thru all difficulties tgt...build a family of our own..work hard towards our goalss...

Monday, September 11, 2006

oHhs~~ no work today...

went cp ate curry chicken with jor..humph..
evrytime we wld say eat the mini steamboat with the fish de..in the end we always eat something else...

went hougang green to get dear's typhoid vaccination medical paper...stupid clinic only open at 6.30..so went SHop and Save..used the Picturemaker machine..printed the formal pic in our phone..heheeehe.had a great time doing it..upload the pic the next time...

stupid dear..so hum..evrything also wan to me to help u say help u do! bleahx

Saturday, September 09, 2006

~~tada~~

HEH HEH HEH HEH HEh

first day of work today!!!
part time waitress at 'REstarant in The wild'
and guess where is it?! whohoho ZOO!!

yeah...dear and I are working tgt...get to enter Zoo for free yei...

-tired and exhausted-
still adapting to the environment there...many new and diff things to adapt to..
HmMs..lots of ppl ard our age..but quite 'beng'...dun quite like huw they work over there..prefer swensens working style..eh..more professional..

yuPs..will be gg back to Zoo tmr again...dead beat...arghh...

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

yeah yeah yeah!

went horizon challenge with cadets today
won the champion!!!
whohoooss~~~

haha..soSOSO proud of dem!!

dear...this is most prob our one of the sweetest 3 days we ever had...

glad to have you
proud to love you
happy to be with you

Saturday, September 02, 2006

whohoo...so bored..

at orchird country club now...dad's friend having bbq here...

bloody bored..using their comp..$1 for 20mins...weird huh...

hai hai...

Thursday, August 31, 2006

whohoo!!!

my exams are over!!

yeahs....SJC's having teachers' Day celebRAtiON to today...yupsS...

went for job interview today =)) at novena there..as telemarketer..work for experience ba..starting work at this coming monday...kinda stress and challenging...

aft which..went Marina with Jor to watch Snakes ON a plane...nice nice nice..really worth watching..super exciting and gruesome..a part tt is NC16..haha...rate this movie 4 and a half star!super funny also...watch with cinemas tt has a lot of ppl..more ppl more fun more screams and laughter!

"He's my new brother from another mother !"

Thursday, August 24, 2006

-pissed off-


tmr's the BIG examination alr
argh!! each examination is 3 hours long..and i got 5 papers to take! F***

feeling: confused
mood: pissed

really cant be bothered with you
-pissed off-


tmr's the BIG examination alr

feeling: confused
mood: pissed

really cant be bothered with you

Sunday, August 20, 2006

im depress..yes i am...super depress

i am a failure in everything

friendship
relationship

someone just kill me now will you?

im such a failure.....

to meidan:
guess u really hate me alot ya...i dun blame u for thinking tt way and saying all those words..probably just hurt...i really dunno wad to say or do...just continue to hate me then...im jus a useless person who does useless things...sorry...

i've owe everyone too much...i've disappoint al of u too much...i've let down al the ppl ard me too much....

....Im jus a failure...

seems like suddenly the whole world is against me

Friday, August 18, 2006

HAPPY pTE DAY yue ying!

honouredd honoured?! wahahahs

best of best of friends =))

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

...stressed up...

main exams are drawing nearer and nearer and yet im still in my own lala land world...day dreaming..letting everyday pass...

stress stress stress..with almost everything...hai..forget it...
take control of your own life carmen!

Monday, August 14, 2006

hei hei!
long time no update le...too lazy..
had SFP lab test today..guess im jus pure lucky...
draw lots for question..got the vegetables one...
was given some peas/medium beans....den was asked to cook one to olive brown colour and the other so that the sample remains the same colour...
wahhaaha.easy ez..settled everything in 15 mins...den was the interview session...teacher came to ask question..wad's the pigment found and blah blah blah...replied with lots of 'erms' and 'ah...'hahaha..stupid think i'll flunk the question & answer part...
thx dear..come al the way to my sch and wait for me and send me home again..=))
11 august: Did lots of things with laogong...watch fireworks wif family...
12 august: PApa's birthday..went to this Thai restuarant called LemonGrass...damn ex..den went Parkway Giant..sianx...mama do her shopping for groceries again..bored*
13 august: study with LaoGong and yiying...haha..piggy back me up the overhead bridge and den throw me down on the bridge..humph

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

carmen! pte is here to invade(:

are you surprised or are you surprised. i bet you are. haha.

anyway, i'm just here to tell you to take care. don't fall asleep during lectures anymore, okay(: haha. hope to catch up with you more often. take care!

yueying.
jingying's sister(:

Sunday, August 06, 2006

wore nice nice today with dear...went out in the early aftnn..

suntec..walk walk..eat..walk walk...went to this candy shop..whoooo!
full of chocolates and sweets//nice sweetss! bought a squeeze squeeze toothpaste like candy


went studying at BK..ate hershey's pie..read newpaper..


den went citylink...bought cup noodles from 7-11..haha and he had to hold both cup
noodles all the way to esplanade there...


FIREWORKS! gosh..it was so b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l shld have brought digi cam...

you've gotto watch beautiful things with beautiful ppl...

_//we promise to watch it every year together//_

felt really happy today...so fortunate to have u by my side...thanx for all the things u've done..

Friday, August 04, 2006

long long no blog le...too tired to come online..too tired to blog..

semestral exams are coming soon...argh..have not been studying well..the determination is gone..


hais..oh wells...


watched HElen the baby fox with dear..it was so touching..i cried..alot..the song was so damn emotional...he finds the movie boring..haha..


FIREWORKS tmr! whoohoos...

Sunday, July 30, 2006

tug-of-war!! me and dear had war today again!!!

yeah our sch won!!! whohohoho!! we won NCHS...

Friday, July 28, 2006


whohoos...yeahs no moodswings today..neither any attitude from you either!
jus updating...

3 months ani present...dear made 2 shirts... it costs him $60 for both...so damn ex..*heartpains*...

the shirt has printings of both of our names and 'braving thru all odds and obstacles'

nicenice

then then today...went kiddy palace..dear bought two garfields...





















yupss...
take me im yours!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

PTD...

part time depression...

fine
leave...
dun talk to me...
bad mood...


-moodswinging-

Sunday, July 16, 2006

finally found some time to come online...update blog...

14th
went back SJC for farewell night..it's a combined UG event.

wohoo...so happy to be back..saw lots of ppl...sandy,adel t,desiree,geri plus some other 'alr-graduated' friends...

dinner was provided...buffet eh...many things to eat but not say very nice..

the performance was erm...OKAY..a bit boring...hahahah..there was this XXX gal dancing..woah her skirt was damn short..
and her dance action was somehow..funny larh..all of us jus sat there laugh and laugh and laugh...

after the performance...me and adel talked...kind of trash talk...i dunno..she cried and i almost...i dunno wad to say to her..maybe things have really changed..ppl change..
life still mus go on..we still have to move on...those memoried we had as a squad will always stay inside our heart..thou sometimes we don always say it out..i believe deep
inside all of us..we still love and treasure this squad as much as u do...yups...

that's al for farewell night..congrats ppl..u've finally officially passed out...

night..hai..played "hide and seek" with xiao dan dan...hai..it was the worst night ever...i don wanna experience it agian..

15th

aRea games day..whole unit went down...many many ppl...

sianx..see ppl play games...watch ppl play games...see and watch..also nothing much to do...

had CI vs North vista captain ball...

argh.AND WE LOST! haha...yiying and me was like..'wha north vista eh lang si bui gao zao'..we old le..long time no run...

hahaha.ok nvm..meet xiao dan dan for lunch afterwards...waited and waited for him...
borrowed 3 books...hmm.very nice books...one was friendship quotes..Life in singapore changi prison..The definative book of body language..

woah that book is nice..by Allan+Barbara Pease...read before a few of their books..worth reading =)

16th

went to skcc to see xiao dan dan dong dong chiang trng...haha..xing ku ni le...mus be having leg cramps and muscle aches now..

went study aftwards...sent him home cas dad fetching me home...anw i think it's still very nice of me to send u home..humph..not even a thank you..bleah blah blah..humph

hahHaa..had burger king for dinner...very very full..

damn sian..tmr sch again le...SFP lab...3hours...argh..save me...

ohhs anyway....i've got my posting results for CI !!! whohoho...im gg back to SJC!! yeahS!!!....dear's gg back to hougang sec..erm..dunno whether to feel happy or wad for him...all the best















caught my lil jewel zZzzZ...




















da book..






Make new friends, but keep the old;
those are silver, these are gold
New-made friendships, like new wine,
age will mellow and refine.
Friendships that have stood the test-
Time and change- are surely the best
brow may wrinkle, hair grow gray;
Friendship nv knows decay.
For 'mid old friends, tried and true,
once more our youth renew.
but old friends, alas! may die;
new friends must their place supply.
Cherish friendship in your breast-
New is good, but old is best;
Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold...



Friday, July 14, 2006

GEMINI WOMEN

A very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

whhees..was suppose to meet lao gonggong for breakfast den see him off for dong dong chiang..wahahas..in the end both of us too tired le...went back to sleep...

woke up late..but miracle!

i was early in sch today...


hahas..sianx..had maths remedial for 2 whole hours and i was sitting all by myself...no one to talk to...so i jus sat there copied watever teacher was writing on the board and of cas- paying my 100% attention...

lectures and tutorial are becoming more and more boring each day...more aliens are invading my brain...killing my brain cells...

tmr's a lecture-marathon day...can don even attend sch...sianz sianz sianz...

will be going to the combine P.O.P farewell night...hmms..with st Johns and GG...no comments..
jus that we use to have the WHOLE ENTIRE HALL to ourselves..lying on the stage watching movie on the big screen projector..wAHAHAS...

time and tide waits for no man...totally agree =))treasure the time u have now with the people around you..for u nv know when they'll be gone...treasure every minute u get to spend with them cause that moment will not come again...yeah..








...squadmates..ij frens are frens for life...


















the sky of today...



















same sky...diff colour










...In our life there is a single colour, as on an artist palette, which provides the meaning of life and art. It is the colour of love...

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

weather's turing cold...

had HAp tut today...spent half of the time playing some stupid boring board game on circulation...

teacher asked a question today as he was explaining huw to play the game...

mr loh: ( talkiing abt white blood cells and there were small tags with the word 'white blood cells' in a plastic bag he was holding...then he asked) where can u find white blood cells...

the class: kept quiet...

me: in the plastic bag!

the whole class started laughing..ya...apparently it's in the plastic bag..but i think..erm..the answer shld be the bone marrow..something scientific..ya..ok it was lame..

didn't have HAP lab today...cas study guide said there isn't any..so half of the class turn out wearing uncovered shoes and coatless...haha...yeah so lab was postpone!

went meet lao gonggong str8 aft sch...went to his sch...both sch...poly and sec...went to hougang pt and mall...read newspaper in the library...den home...hai hai hai...

Sunday, July 09, 2006

home sweet home...

took train to SGh yst night..mum was admitted to hospital...went to stayover...

haha..somehow felt like i was a runaway home kid with the backpack,short,slipper and jacket...
reached there...bath,eat watch tv...was alr 1am...did my things till 3 plus...slept at 4 plus...

6.15am...a malay aunty was admitted into the same ward...gosh.she was damn noisy..think she has abit of mental problem...kept shouting and calling and moaning...NON-STOP...wha..felt like scotch-taping her mouth...woke both me and my mum up...

a lil while more...i got use to her shoutings and i cont to sleep...haha.sleep more impt...
think im gonna go into deep coma tonight...very tired now...miss my bed.sch ends at 1 tmr...hmm..will be gg back SJC to conduct campcraft and drill test...still getting use to CI life...



...When the time comes I can't smile anymore, don't worry about me, I know what to do. I'll just stare at one corner and think of you. No one else could make me happy like the way you do...

Friday, July 07, 2006

i dunno wad im feeling now...part time depression...my head feels like it's gonna burst anytime..

haha...probably too stressed up with sch stuffs..so much things to study...it seems like the lecturer is talking alien-terms to me...im trying hard to decipher the language...haha..i mus really strive and study real hard...

hai...i need determination,strength and encouragement...and the courage to face those aliens...argh...im gg crazy..

ate ya kun kaya toast today...egg--nice...bread--yucks..i think i can toast better mann...tea with coffee--thx to dear

went home ate dinner...felt so stressed aft dinner...felt like puking..urghx...will feel better after a good night sleep..zZzZZZ...


......Patience and perseverence have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish......

Thursday, July 06, 2006

argh..having stomachache now...jus finished dinner...grandma's staying over tonite..

haha class was nv boring with my clique...lol...
our class had chged PIPC teacher..mann.the teacher was the one who took us for lab session yst..the one tt gave geri headache...HAHA...

-yst lab-
he speaks wif a china accent..haha..called him for help in work..'teacher, teacher !" he din respnd..so i tot,since he was from china

i shouted "lao shi. lao shi!'' stupid he still din respnd to us...humph. asked him some questions on the lab report we had to do..wha..ask might as well don ask..
actually all we had to know is jus use the formula given..

had communication skills today..arh...impromptu presentation for 3mins..haha..my topic was: Do you think that Singapore Idol promotes racial harmony?

waliew eh..wad has spore idol got to do wif racial harmony...no link lo..so irrelevent

went tm to meet jor..finally....first day of the week he came to find me...humph..
was so damn hungry...cant eat..cas fat fat le...hoh...humph..he was so crazy al the way in the bus...kept talking crap..wha make me headache...
partially also due to the "wobbly" bus and my empty stomach..felt like puking.

yups...but aftall...this mood and attitude is defintely better....hmmss.yup.haha...

...loved....life cant be any better now...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

no more sad sad entry...yeap...

hai..sch is becoming more and more boring...lecture and tutorial lecture and tutorial..sianx...no lab these few days..good good good...

mus study hard..very hard now..i cant afford to fail my exams..i mus prove my parents wrong..

i mus get into uni..wohohoo...

study study study...

hmm...laogonggong...yr attitude these few days really chg to the better.A WHOLE LOT BETTER

thanx dear...eh...anyway u ought to be ...wahahahs.

went cp today...hmm..today's really a very nice day...laughed like mad with u...hmm..seems like it has been a long time since both of us were so happy..wonder will u stay like this tmr,the day aft tmr..one week ltr,one month later,one year later...will u?


There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fears. The one who fears is not made perfect in love...

Saturday, July 01, 2006

History repeats itself over and over again. yst night was...i dunno.kind of unforgettable...haha...followed u for so long...from bus 156 to Life bookshop to popular to library to the escalator...yr whole aim was jus to make me go home.i didn't want to..cas i know..i know...u gave up..went up to bus 83 so tt i wld follow u and then send me home..i knew i knew..u pretended nothing happen.but i know deep inside u..u didn't felt good...outside my lift gate..you wanted to gave the 5...i rejected it..trying so hard to get away from yr "farewell gift"...finally i got free..i ran out from the other gate...i didn't know where to go...i jus wanted to run away and escape from reality...i walked and ran away...i didn't noe were you chasing...wanted to head to punggol end..but halfway..i felt so scared..i dunno why..i turned back wanting to look for u..barely a few steps i saw u walking towards my direction.i was shocked.yes.we talked...all tt u said was go home.go home.go home.go home.i deserve better guys..u cant give me happiness..my life wld be better..LOL...wahahah..u do not know i really felt deep inside..fine..u said u'll go home if i do not..u walked back to the bus stop..i followed u...we sat at the bus stop..u took out stuffs from yr wallet..probably going to throw it away right? far far away and nv come back...i was so afraid to see wad u'll do next..my mind went total blank..my legs jus took me home..u chased..i didn't know till i reached the lift gate..i ignored u..took the lift and went back home..wad is there more for us to talk when u have alr set the outcome?!u msged me..told me tt u'll stay at my lift there till i come down,u regretted for not cherishing the last chance given..told me to look out of the window...i was terrified..i tot wad were u thinking i ran to the window quickly and look at the roads..i tot..hai...u were sitting at that place...ya..gave me a big shock..i turned away..and went i went back again..u weren't there...disappointment...so this is how long u cld wait?...haha...shan't go on...

1.Are promises meant to be broken?
2.Why should i trust you and give u another chance again?
3.Can u ensure the same thing wun happen again?

you're given another chance...

ppl...I'm fine dun worry =)) yupss..i know wad im doing...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

im dying...jus kill me..im better off dead...

numb my feelings please...i beg you...it hurts so much right now...

it won't be the same....

two hearts standing strong as one...braving thru all odds and obstacles...

Monday, June 26, 2006

whoa..misss onlining...

POC....em...nice...it was kinda grand...wore no.1 u...had the presentation of cert...then the donning of rank...whoa nicely done...aft tt had the pledge taking..was the one who lead the pledge..a lil scary...was wif emily maam at the back..haha.she said jia you...took alot of pictures with evrybody...especially squad alpha...=))

went back to classroom..had our last squad debrief..so many things to look back on..so many memories of this J06...

tt day was also our 2 mths...nothing much...gave him a bottle half filled with saga seeds...took bus home...all tired and worn out...

Thursday, June 22, 2006

tmr's a big big day!

the day where we have been waiting for...the last day where J06 is gg to be tgt as one...

whohoos..Passing Out Ceremony! will be number one-u! yeahs yeahs...gonna take lots and lots of photos..

tmr's also our 2 mths...23rd June...yeap...so much as happen..

wad'll happen tmr...i dunno..im scared...both of our parents will be attending the POC...wad if..they're bound to talk to one another..argh..hai hai hai...im scared...cld only pray for a smooth and sailing meeting...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

too many chances given...it's up to you whether u wanna cherish and treasure it...

too much tears shed for u...don make all my tears go down to the drain...

too much promises made...i hope promises are not meant to be broken for i'll always stand by what i say...

too much heart put in...i need u to take my heart but pls don break it for broken hearts has no spare parts...

too much trust...i trust u over over and over again...don make me lose trust in u...

too much words...so much words u've said to me...but action proves louder than words...

too many sacrifices...i will do jus for you...

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

i dunno wat's wrong wif u this 2 days..i really dunno...

im so numbed by yr doiings...wad more can i say or do...u left me speechless by wad u've said...is this wad u really wan deep inside yr heart?...i feel like screamin and tearing my heart now...it's bleeding profusely...promises are meant to be broken huh? i guess so...so much for my heart,soul and trust...i stood by my promise while u kept breaking dem...is this wad u really want? i dunno wad to do wad to say...

u left me broken jus like that...


Yue ying: thx gal for evrything that you've done...sorry for not being there when u neede someone...sorry for all the things i've done wrong...sorry...once PTE forever PTE

Mei dan: wad can i say...5 yrs of friendship,squadmates,hse mates...we thru thick and thin tgt...thru so much quarrels and cold wars...haha..gal jus call me foolish...scold me...i love u...
i dunno wat's wrong wif u this 2 days..i really dunno...

im so numbed by yr doiings...wad more can i say or do...u left me speechless by wad u've said...is this wad u really wan deep inside yr heart?...i feel like screamin and tearing my heart now...it's bleeding profusely...promises are meant to be broken huh? i guess so...so much for my heart,soul and trust...i stood by my promise while u kept breaking dem...is this wad u really want? i dunno wad to do wad to say...

u left me broken jus like that...

Sunday, June 18, 2006

yeahs..it has been so long since i come online and blog...soOOo many many many many things...will eleborate more on a ltr date...

jus highlight the things tt happen for the past few days...

10-13 june: ATC
14 june: collection of no.1 u
15 june: bdae wif dear at zoo =))
16 june: wearing formally wif dear
17 june: jogging wif dear from punggol to punggol park
dinner wif family at sakura
23 june: passing out ceremony and 2 mths ani...


till then...
take care to all...

Friday, June 09, 2006

hai hai...tmr's ATC le...will only be back on tuesday...huw am i gonna survive the 4 days 3 nights...dear's diff grp...it'll be so near yet so far...hai hai...haha still cld rmb cadet time...atc means...

Additional
Torture
Camp

lols...cant believe time passes so fast...tmr's gonna be 10th June...June...so fast so fast...hmmmss...sudden depression now...jus felt tt everything's gonna go wrong...

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

whehehes...im gonna fling flang flang my maths...god bless me...spent the last 40 mins day dreaming...gave up on the paper...hopeless...

tmr's HAP...gonna study extra hard...mus excel in this sub..hehhehs...

currently in NYP lib...using jor's labtop...studying while waiting for him...arh...hungry hungry hungry...2 hours and 15 mins more to go...

woke up this morning...was suppose to meet jor in the morning de...in the end...haha.sleep is more impt =)) found out tt both of us actually made egg mayo as breakfast for each other today...hahHahaha...so sweet...

ATc's this sat...huw am i gonna survive....argh argh...

Monday, June 05, 2006

...part time depression...PIPC was hard today...it's a sure fail thing...hai hai..wad mus i do..wad can i do...study hard...study study study...

sat's trng

it was one of the best trng...hmmss...had lots of lectures...so tired so slpy...spent most of the time with jor...had alot of fun times with alpha...hai.....

ATC's this coming sat...4 days 3 nights...wonder huw am i gg to survive...wad will happen aft this 4 days...im really scared...very very scared...dunaskmewhy...im jus scared...

slept at 3 plus yst night...din really study...read thru my yearbook and SPO...so many memories..


cantlivewithoutyou

Friday, June 02, 2006

stupid stupid! this my 3rd time retyping...forget it!! humph humph..all comp @$!#%%%$#%$$...humph humph...argh

all comps are retarded...humph...

stupid

Thursday, June 01, 2006

carmen.

hey. what have you done to your previous blog! your links are gone. haha. so now you've got to be punished. 3/4 of your links are copied and pasted from my blog. too lazy to relink everyone close to you. however, in addition, your squadmates' links are also up. be honoured okay. (:

p.t.e.